Simplicity

It's funny to see people grow happy with smiles and giddiness when they see someone they find attractive, much like a celebrity, but more personal because it's just a regular person. I don't think those people themselves realize that they make other people happy in the most simplest of ways. Just by existing. It's one of the good things in life. some may find it childish, but the child in all of is us where our true happiness is. Like I keep saying. I'm in the phase of realizing that I'm growing up, and it sucks to think about it, but it's something everyone goes through. I know I'm not alone. I just want to keep the child in me alive. I'm trying to look at things simply, get giddy, and happy like others do when they see the person they like, but sometimes its hard. Judgement stops that for us. Judgement from other people, on how we're looked at in society, and also even more our own self judgement. There's a kind of person that we all want to be. Either a combination of several people we've encountered in our life, or just a single person, we want to grow up and be a certain way. A way we think we will be happy and a way that society will also accept us. Sometimes, I think that's the only concern of a person. To be happy with ourselves, and also be accepted in society. All the little goals we have for ourselves, if you think about it builds up to that. When we reach those goals, what was accomplished? What's the big picture? It's exactly that. How funny. I always say it's the simple things in life that make us happy, but really that's everything. Life is simple. We just grow up to look at things more complicated.

Reading List

Lately I've been reading. Weird, for me. I've never been a reader before, never read unless I was required to for school. But now that I've started reading for pure enjoyment, I find it very sad that I didn't discover the joy of reading earlier. I've read two books in the past week and that's honestly more than I've read in the past 7 years of my life. I'm missing out, that's for sure. Anyways, here's a list of books I want to and plan to read in the near future. This is only the start. In no particular order.

Great Expectations by Charles Dickens (Started reading today!)

The Perks of Being a Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky (One of the books I finished this week that I plan on reading again, and again)

The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho

Adverbs by Daniel Handler

God Says No by James Hannaham

Crank series by Ellen Hopkins (Finished Crank tonight)

Stash by David Klein (The title of this book really caught me :-))

Never Let Me Go by Kazuo Ishiguro

The Hunger Games Trilogy by Suzanne Collins

The Catcher in the Rye by J.D. Salinger

The Bible (Read but not analyzed)

The Scarlet Letter by Nathaniel Hawthorne

Even by Andrew Grant

The Happiness Project by Gretchen Rubin

Loose Girl: A Memoir of Promiscuity by Kerry Cohen